Tea for Two

It's hard to believe that this past week would have been J's 6th birthday and E's 5th birthday. I think about them every day, but during the past few months it's been different. Some of the old aches have come back. I feel like people don't understand why I still miss them and don't just move on. J and E are just as real as you and I. They are unique from me, from each other, from the Holy Ghost. During my brief pregnancies, I got to know them spirit to spirit because that was really the only way I could interact with them. I would just quietly sit and feel. I can't really describe how it worked, but I received a little insight on their personalities and in some ways they are complete opposites. Birthday cake flavored ice cream for the April birthdays: J's, E's, and mine. I'm just like my mom. At the very first inkling that I might be pregnant, I am completely and totally in love with that child. The price for love like that is h...

This month was another long crazy month! It was filled with a lot of great times though. I flew back to California for my grandpa's funeral. This was my third trip to California in three months. I really hope that I don't keep up this crazy travel schedule. I don't know if it's funny or not, but I want to remember this story. My flight was really early and I didn't feel like eating breakfast, but I knew I would get hungry since I wouldn't be getting in to California until noon which would be 2 pm for my current time zone. I decided to pack a peanut butter sandwich and some apple slices for later. I feel like I'm a pro at going through airport security since I've been traveling so much. Well, I was wrong. My backpack was taken aside and had to be inspected more closely. I couldn't think of what would come up on the scan that would be so dangerous. It turned out that it was my peanut butter sandwich. I had to open the bag it was in and show th...